
I'm reading this book,
Red Like Blood by Joe Coffey and Bob Bevington. It's a book with fascinating stories about these two mens lives and the journey God has taken them on, as well as other stories of people they've met along the way. I love how real & honest it is (more so than other Christian books I'v read). These men have had real struggles in their life and have known people who have dealt with tragedies and although I'm only half way through the book, it's helped changed my perspective a bit on life.
This has been a rough year for me, losing two babies, being sick with pregnancies, and I'v had close friends go through tragic events in the past few months that have caused me to ask, "why do you allow such hard things to happen God?" I have questioned aspects of God's goodness and questioning things about God I'v always thought I had answers to yet I kept coming up empty handed and depressed. God is faithful and He has been answering some of my questions and giving me peace about things that are completely out of my control, for instance I can not control if the baby growing inside me will live or die, her life is in God's hands. I can honestly say God has been gracious to me and given me peace to rest in the fact that He is the sustainer of ALL life.
There is a section in this book I loved. I'll share it:
"God's math is always profound and paradoxical. Whenever you realize things are not what they seem to be, you're probably learning God's math. Here are some mind-boggling examples of single-sentence paradoxical equations straight from the Bible.
It is more blessed to give than to receive.
The greatest among you shall be your servant.
For whoever would save his life will lose it.
You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good.
When I am weak, then I am strong.
The Bible is a veritable God-math textbook. You'll find it's full of stuff like this. Brokenness is a constant in God's formulas. Our brokenness forms the cracks through which grace flows in and joy pours out. Learning the math of God involves embracing brokenness the way he does. It involves a collision between his grace and our brokenness. The resultant sum of all of God's calculations is the same: We get more of Him.
Getting more of God equals finding satisfaction, significance, and fulfillment in him. When we do, it is axiomatic: we get more Joy and God gets more glory. And that results in living a life that transcends circumstances"